I keep saying there are brain fog, do I try to keep the real again? The real is that I've been liking soy milk, been uncomfortably boring, not bored as much, not knowing time, I am as young as before. I like soy milk though, I like how it looks grey, but it's this specific drink; VSOY barley, purple, something? It looks like concrete. I'm still mistrusting everything in connection based. I mistrust in myself. I think so much in words, and pleasure myself so much in sounds. I'm listening to 2 hollis, energy surge. Maybe it's like just this is it. I think it has something to do with me not praying too actually.